My gravity’s strong
Top of the world to rock bottom in seconds
Funny how fast happiness turns into life’s lessons
Flip the switch with a quickness
All you have left is your vision
All you have left is your faith
Tests of time tamper your mind
Guilty to pleasure, I testify to this crime
They say love better, listen a little more
But walk in these shoes, it’s a double edge sword
A catch 22, embezzling my own comfort
Just for the approval of you
How selfless, selfie with a white wall
Stand tall, but you can’t walk before you crawl
You think, but it’s after you talk
Words of wisdom in a blizzard
Warm your heart before you say it’s a cold world
Before you’re in condition to reach terms
Arguments to agreements, but then we concede it
Hands meet, but do they ever align?
Action pistols louder than a grenade of words
Flash bangs of misinterpretations
Intentions appear as a lie, but you would never believe
Never believe the pain you see in my eyes
Not with his blessings, not with that smile
But you can only understand if you sat to listen for a while.
The appealing, concealing secrets, scheming
going with the flow, doesn’t show, cause her smile’s absent
pretty young thing never seen what stands right in front of her
rather indicative she pulls all of her weeds instead of recognizing the garden
realizing that whatever goes wrong, she won’t accept a pardon
the interruptions of her peace, can you give it to her?
She said “please” with a polite manner, she’s waiting for the answer.
Applause for what she accomplishes, holding all of her promises
but always hopes one day that her problems could go away
sitting, waiting, wishing on finding that right place where she stays
settle in, kick off the shoes just to sit back after dinner and relax
she writes and lays her feelings on that pillow
never know whether it’s scattered or if it was just an intro
though she’s searching for a thrill putting together what she spills
a heart on her sleeve, she just pours and im laying here wanting more
a heart on her sleeve, she’s slowly picking together her pieces.
Remember when you said you’d try?
bet i never knew it would end up in the room to cry
honesty was the best policy, but shit i lied to myself
work on me, me working on my plea
God can you please help me?
praise him, praise him, while im stuck here insaning
remember when you had nothing at all?
you worked hard just to get it all
then you had it and you dropped it
propped it on a pedestal, but hesitated on the pedal
to appreciate, now you let it marinate with some lemon on your wound
I swear id love to thank you, but i think it’d be too soon
new year new me, fuck, i was too much of a fool.
Through this destruction
the disparity will forever be, forever me
though I break mentally, my walls remain a tower
Even if I dance around with success
the problem parties I attend, I remain a wall flower
sold my feelings for temporary happiness
exposed what I oppose, I learned more than forever
that time is what we all need
space to contemplate
praise to heal and pain we need to feel
dispose of my composure, i’m composed to say this
it was never you that was the problem
Rather it was me that i just hated.
When i’m scared, I check every corner
over think, analyze, rationalize every action
just to get out of the shoes of the mourner
Diaphoresis, depletion in confidence
wishing on thinking, being something like an optomist
I release into my fetal position
staring at the wall, staring at my fear
that if they would all leave this place
my goals would be near
attainable, to fathom such insecurities
looking in the mirror I ask what do i really see
What do i feel really? If all of it is real and i deserve this
Why can’t I grasp it, and why can’t i grasp myself.
but when i’m scared, I wonder if i’ll ever face Me.
— a nigga that dont give a fuck if you turn him down or not because you look good enough to treat him bad (via popitfadatnigga)